yes, this morning I was plotting out a really good cathartic complaint post.
it was going to include the horrors of interuppted sleep, 5:30 mornings (and this before baby arrives), a dreadful lack of pants that will stay up for any amount of time, my near insanity due to the constant 'pulling up', the inability to do simple things such as lean over to pick something up (of course this is done anyway with many a moan and groan), tie a shoe (slip-ons only please) or clean up the aftermath of Mekaia's meal under his highchair. oh, it was going to include the grumpy moods of children who are waking too early, the regressive, (hopefully) pre-baby behavior of the lovely Lesina and the constant hitting and grabbing of Mekaia (I heard, 'Mama he hit me again!' at least 8 times BEFORE 6:30 this morning). it was going to bemoan my tired, uncomfortable body and mind, and the lack of a light at the end of the very long tunnel...because once the baby comes, can any of these things really be expected to improve? or just get more intense! oh, yes it was all planned out. how much more can I take anyhow? and is it possible that there is some kind of purpose behind all of this seemingly mundane yet incredibly trying stuff? ahhhhhh, motherhood.
but then I became too thankful to complain. you see, I have a mother that I can barely tell you about lest you become jealous. she brought us treats today that I wouldn't necessarily buy with our tight finances...pineapple frozen yogurt/mango sorbet (it won't last long, don't bother coming by for any), frozen pizza (yay easy) and more....just because.
She's been painting our front door and bench rather than letting me do it in a few months...I guess she things I'll be busy or something?
Small renovation projects that I've been itching to do and just bouncing off of her, she has been helping with without being asked (I just always have ideas and plans swirling around in my head for the future) just to bless us. when she found out I was going to be gone longer than usual today for my doctor visit, she did the unthinkable: organized my cupboards, cleared out my fridge, and folded the laundry!
now you see why I'm reluctant to tell you these things...I am SO blessed. Thank you Mom!
there are other reasons for my thankfulness as well. two little children that I'm blessed to be charged with, and fun moments with them such as our Wynton Marsalis dance last night...see Sue, I haven't forsaken the ballet altogether...even at 39 weeks pregnant!
seeing God speak in my life, and in the lives of those around me. a loving husband. beauty all around me.
and today, an all-clear report on the baby...you see at my doc. apptmt, the heartbeat was too low, around 95 instead of 110-160...so I went in for a non-stress test (which turned out to be a lovely non-stress rest in which I didn't move for 30 minutes!) I was a bit concerned, but the nurses didn't seem worried, and the concensus was that the baby is very responsive and active when awake, but drops down to a very low heart rate when resting/sleeping. This base rate is at the lowest of normal, or slightly below. So they just said to monitor the baby's movement, and come in if it's particularly inactive. So I would appreciate your prayers for all of this...but am still feeling thankful that there are no apparent serious problems.
there you go...from complaining to grateful today.
guess it just depends what we choose to focus on (0:
sorry I'm so long-winded!
7 comments:
my ever positive sister. wow. God is definitely at work in your heart to have you make the switch from grumpy to grateful...wow. i am impressed. yikes. i can't say i do that as quickly as you did! haha.
so dear. we will pray for your sweet precious child. and for you. :) low heart at resting, perhaps a calm and restful baby? :)
love you dear. from su
that's what we're hoping...
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xxoo
Aahhh, perspective is a wonderful thing. I've had a dose or two of that myself lately.
Take care of yourself and can't wait to hear about that beautiful healthy baby.
I was going to say the same thiing as Susan. Low heart rate must mean you are going to be blessed with a calm, relaxed 3rd child! :)
Your change of attitude is a wonderful example to me. Oh and by the way, if your Mom can't find anything more to do at your house, she's welcome to come over here!! :)
Sarah, our prayers are with you! Don't stress, I am sure that the Lord will be holding your hand thru all this. Maybe you have a very quiet, calm baby. We will continue to pray. Please keep us all posted.
Hugs from our house to yours.
You go ahead and rant. You are 39 weeks.....you're allowed to complain, and complain A LOT!!!!!!
You are blessed for having such a wonderful mother. What a wonderful relationship.
Yes, just monitor baby's movements. Praying that this will be an "easy" journey to this outside world.
Yay for moms...both your mom Ellen, and you! You are both fantatsic moms, and I'm sure you bless your children daily (even if they don't recognize it) just as your mom blesses you. Which reminds of something...recently during an immigrant Bible we help with, one man (who has no Christian background at all) asked if it's OK to call God "Mother" rather than "Father". We had a somewhat humorous but interesting discussion about it, and about how the Bible refers to God as Father, but also makes only a few references to him loving us like a mother. Anyways...all that to say that God understands your challenges and daily life as a mom, and He LOVES to help you with it all, especially when that new little Lapa arrives! Blessings Sarah!
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